Falling asleep in the living room every day
The days are filled with stress.
The main cause of stress is work.
These days, I often work from 9am to 10pm.
There's just too much work.
Too much of it and it becomes less efficient.
I finish work and get home around 11pm.
I'll have dinner before the date changes.
While eating, I watch Prime Video on my smartphone.
At around 11:50pm, I rush to do some Duolingo.
I often find myself falling asleep with my smartphone in my hand.
When I fall asleep, I usually wake up around 3:30am.
I clean up the dishes and run the dishwasher while continuing to watch Prime Video.
Around 4:30 AM, I'll quietly slip into the bedroom.
I wake up at 7am.
If I didn't take a bath last night, I'll take a shower.
I'll also clean the bathroom.
After breakfast, I leave for work.
Crowded morning trains are hell.
…….
I really living a terrible.
It's a living where my family will abandon me one day.
Sometimes I think that my current job isn't the right fit for me.
I'm not good at competing.
I'm not good at outsmarting people.
But in reality, you have to sell more than other companies to make a profit.
I have a lot of other work to do, but this part is the most stressful.
Working under stress is very bad for your health.
I understand that very well.
I'm working hard to support my family, even though it's tough.
In Japan, there are plenty of job openings for people in their 20s and 30s, but very few for people in their late 40s.
Even if there are jobs available, the salary is usually lower.
Unfortunately, the annual salaries of the job openings posted on job search services were all lower than my current salary.
There's no point in regretting that you should have been more valuable.
I am part of the generation that experienced the employment ice age, so perhaps I was not fortunate.
But I'm trying to switch to a more positive mindset.
Worrying about it won't change anything.
I want to think about how I can make my current job easier.
How can I reduce overtime?
What can you do to get the job done faster?
My studies will continue.
Before that...
I need to change this terrible lifestyle.
First, start by sleeping in your own bed.
Get back to a regular life.
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